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Dear anonymous,

Whoever's out there & is coming into my life next, there are a few things about me that you need to know before you decide to ride this progressing train.
I mean c'mon, if you're gonna be my partner in crime there needs to be some ground rules first.
First of all, in the words of Kelly Clarkson, "I do not hook up, I fall deep" meaning we take it slow...& I'm not talkin "linkin" for a few months & then decide to be together. No. I'm talking "Musiq soulchild - Buddy" or "Musiq Soulchild - Just friends" style...hell....Musiq had the whole idea. We either do it that way to begin with or no way at all & you will just remain my associate forever. I take things slow for a reason, if you rush me it won't be nice for either of us.
Secondly, I will not believe you if you tell me you like me just after a couple of weeks/one month...that's rubbish. I will not believe you if you tell me you want to spend ridiculous amounts of money on me when you barely know me, that's how you know crap is just sitting heavy behind your words. I won't listen to you if you repeat lines to me I heard on the movie I watched the previous day, or you tell me what you think you know about me, because I'll just look at you, and then I'll laugh.
Thirdly, don't play games. I'm not into that. I'll walk out upon any signs of that. I'm not in for any type of emotional stress or excess hassle from someone who's just as human as I am. If you keep it 100% real with me I'll keep it real with you...I'll prob like you even more for being so upfront with me anyway.
Also.
Laugh with me when I eat messy, tolerate the fact that I go crazy when I see sweeties or a pix & mix stand. Know that when I tell you to read a book because you'll like it...I know for a damn fact you really would like it. Get used to the fact that I'm talkative...& most of it is rubbish...you have to listen to the rubbish too. I'm aff...know that eventually you'll have to understand whats comin out of my mouth...I'm not saying you have to speak it, but make attempts to understand & accept it the way I will do for whatever culture you're coming from. Know that sometimes I like to cuddle just because. Watch cartoons with me in the morning & jam with me to in video gospel. Let me know when I'm being an idiot, it may sting but I'll appreciate it later. We're not having sex so dont ask. I can go from snap music to adlibbing to alicia keys to air guitaring to Evanescansce to jumping around to Smokie Norful to chillaxin & writing along to some Maxwell...my taste in music runs wide & deep...I'm not saying you have to like it but be accepting. Have deep conversations with me. Don't underestimate me or insult my growing intelligence...you'll regret it later. Respect my beliefs & when I ask you to pass me the remote...give it.
My list runs a mile long, but you have to learn the rest along the way. I can't reveal all the secrets can I ?

Love Uwie


P.s...just for the record...it's not like I won't give back 110%. Trust me when I say I will.

Why did I write this ?
I was reading a book earlier about how demanding we as people are with what we want from others. This made me wonder about just how much I'd be asking for from the next person...so I was thinkin about it n I decided to put it down in the best form I know, writing.
To be honest before I wrote this I didn't think I was demanding at all, but I realise I'm asking for an awful lot of someone who's just as human as I am and struggling to get through life the same way that I am. I guess it's a lot when I lay it out like that...but I do know my worth & I do know what I will & won't stand for. That being said doesn't mean that I don't have a lot of work to do on myself before I start telling someone else what to expect and take from me.
For the past few days I've been on this "why should I give my heart out to someone when they're just gonna trample on it ? bun dat" flex...& my friend pointed out to me the other day that I may well just be the one trampling next...because I am a human & it's what we humans do best.

This all makes me think about just how much acceptance & patience you need to have to be able to be with someone else, how much of their baggage you need to take on without a hint of complaint...& you'd do it because you love them. Babysitting.
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Yeah that patience & acceptance part...I'm working on that.

xoxo