_Keez Complicity

Saturday, 29 August 2009

Is love really THAT blind ?

This picture just says it all, in the sense that sometimes...we're the ones blinding ourselves.

Everyone likes the feeling of love, being in love.
The good morning texts.
The "I just wanted to let you know how much I miss you" emails/inboxes.
The snuggle times.
The kisses.
The feeling of knowing someone feels the same way about you that you do them.

But no one thinks about the consequences.

The consequences that the person you're falling for just may not be worth the love that you're giving to them.
Being mentally/physically abused, having the foundations of your peace of mind shaken, loosing who you are & your life, the risk of your whole being becoming about that person then the relationship becomes unhealthy.
Why ?
Because we're not smart.
I know so many girls who are so in love with the idea of falling in love, they're willing to dive into anything no matter how painful it is just so they can experience it. They obviously have no idea what they're on about... but for those of us who have been in love before, isn't it really worth it to just take things that bit slower ?
Rushing as I've learned only ever leads to hurt you could've avoided if you were smarter, I mean, what's wrong with spending a little more time with each other just as friends ? [ I almost said "mate"...oh my daze @_@ ] without all the messy stuff like sex & feelings & time limits, why not take it that little bit slower to really KNOW the person you're about to give your heart too. It's not about "longin it" as some people like to call it, it's about taking the time to really get to know someone, before you willingly give up your peace of mind & wholeness of heart to someone else to keep.

I recently made up my mind that if a guy is ever in the picture, it would have to be a month + before I even make up my mind that I like them as a FRIEND let alone start to allow myself to have feelings for them, because if that aint the case you get idiots tellin you after 1 week how much they like you, how great they supposedly think you are & all this other foolishness that belongs in the bin. The purer the foundations the better.
Although...people say there is the problem of when you have a good friendship with someone & you get into a relationship with that person, if you break up with them there's a strong chance that it'll be harder to salvage the friendship after. Sometimes it is but sometimes it isn't. People make the mistake of not giving each other space after they break up, when I say space I mean REAL space, space enough so they can think about their ex being with someone else & it's practically no skin off their nose, that's when they know they're ready enough to start their friendship again from the top.
Trust me when I say I'm ready to take things as slow as possible out here, cause that guy who is the truth WILL stand the test of time.
It's better to be smart about these things than to wrecklessly go in & by the end of it be several pieces of your heart short because some looser still has bits of it in his pocket.

xoxo

Yawns Just a quick update.

I'm so jealous.
I've had the longest weekend, I've had barely any rest the whole week so I really just wanna collapse into my bed [its got that fresh bed sheet feelin` goin on too] & let sleep drown me.
However I can't.
Cause I'm being forced to watch final destination 3.
So I though before I konk out let me drop a blog.
Ahem.
It's been a really long week too...but thankfully this week has all been about personal growth for me. I've been spending a lot of time in the kitchen cooking [ I was surprised to learn that I actually am a good cook] & I baked cookies on friday with Cindy. I made them by 5:00pm & by the time I got back downstairs by 7:00pm my family had demolished them. I was too proud of myself to get irri over it, hell, I thought I'd bun cookies if I ever baked them on my own but I didn't & u knowwwww this maynnnnnnnnnn.

Also, my Piano & music theory is getting a hell of a lot better :o). In terms of my vocals ...erm...confidence & creativity is my biggest problem right now. I can adlib & sing all I want on my own, but once I get up infront of a croud I freeze up [as proved last week thursday...I'd rather not talk about it thanks]. It was some seriously emotional times, I cried after & Cindy and my vocal coach scolded me like never before...it's not like I were seriously singing in a concert, I was ministering in a church & I got waaay more nervous than I should have allowed myself to cause I weren't prepared, plus I'd let a bad comment get to my head & shattered my confidence.
However, I ministered again last night to my own church & it went a hell of a lot better...I was still nervous as hell but I handled it better. I guess this is just another hurdle I have to overcome & I know with time I will. In terms of the song I'm writing I unfortunately haven't been paying as much attention to it as I should have been, so I plan to use the next couple of days to really get some stuff down.

Plus, I move out next sunday. Am I shittin' bricks ? Hell yes. I have NO idea what's in store for me in terms of who I'm living with and the experience life is about to throw at me. I don't know anyone in the uni, I don't have any idea where to even start...& I'm spending so much money this year which is KILLING me...I hope it's all worth it.

xoxo

Monday, 24 August 2009

A lot of love for...

Sara Bareilles <3

A lot of people may not see it, but her lyrics & music are a stroke of pure genius.
The definition of original, n even though this song sounds like somethin` you'd hear on an advert I love the meaning behind it.
Her album = G.O.A.T.

xoxo

Always be.

"I don't wanna hear "I'll be your superman" cause we both know that you can't fly...all the same..I'll accept you takin` the train to come & save me".
- Pookie.

My lil` quote there is me simply expressing the importance of being yourself...so you get the real gist of what you're dealing with.
Why quack like a duck when you're a dog ?
If you know you're ONLY Clark Kent, then tell me, n' take the train/bus to come & find me...I'll still appreciate that you came.
Allow me, I'm having a random moment, blame late night music.

xoxo

Sunday, 23 August 2009

Family times = Good times.

Today was a nice day. My 2 fav cousins are down from Nigeria & my nephew, so today was family day.
Full of Nando's, fanta & plentyful jokes.

I don't really get why people say me & this chicken look like twins, it's so blatant that she's my younger sister...

This is Roro [a.k.a Papa], he's such a naughty boy & a troublemaker but I love him to bits...I notice I act really immature around kids...he's passed the age where hes too cute to look for his trouble. I had just given him a bath in that pic & he was so tired, plus I look a hot mess & probably smelled like soap but we still had a lot of fun.

It's all love

xoxo