Is love really THAT blind ?

This picture just says it all, in the sense that sometimes...we're the ones blinding ourselves.

Everyone likes the feeling of love, being in love.
The good morning texts.
The "I just wanted to let you know how much I miss you" emails/inboxes.
The snuggle times.
The kisses.
The feeling of knowing someone feels the same way about you that you do them.

But no one thinks about the consequences.

The consequences that the person you're falling for just may not be worth the love that you're giving to them.
Being mentally/physically abused, having the foundations of your peace of mind shaken, loosing who you are & your life, the risk of your whole being becoming about that person then the relationship becomes unhealthy.
Why ?
Because we're not smart.
I know so many girls who are so in love with the idea of falling in love, they're willing to dive into anything no matter how painful it is just so they can experience it. They obviously have no idea what they're on about... but for those of us who have been in love before, isn't it really worth it to just take things that bit slower ?
Rushing as I've learned only ever leads to hurt you could've avoided if you were smarter, I mean, what's wrong with spending a little more time with each other just as friends ? [ I almost said "mate"...oh my daze @_@ ] without all the messy stuff like sex & feelings & time limits, why not take it that little bit slower to really KNOW the person you're about to give your heart too. It's not about "longin it" as some people like to call it, it's about taking the time to really get to know someone, before you willingly give up your peace of mind & wholeness of heart to someone else to keep.

I recently made up my mind that if a guy is ever in the picture, it would have to be a month + before I even make up my mind that I like them as a FRIEND let alone start to allow myself to have feelings for them, because if that aint the case you get idiots tellin you after 1 week how much they like you, how great they supposedly think you are & all this other foolishness that belongs in the bin. The purer the foundations the better.
Although...people say there is the problem of when you have a good friendship with someone & you get into a relationship with that person, if you break up with them there's a strong chance that it'll be harder to salvage the friendship after. Sometimes it is but sometimes it isn't. People make the mistake of not giving each other space after they break up, when I say space I mean REAL space, space enough so they can think about their ex being with someone else & it's practically no skin off their nose, that's when they know they're ready enough to start their friendship again from the top.
Trust me when I say I'm ready to take things as slow as possible out here, cause that guy who is the truth WILL stand the test of time.
It's better to be smart about these things than to wrecklessly go in & by the end of it be several pieces of your heart short because some looser still has bits of it in his pocket.

xoxo

*Yawns* Just a quick update.

I'm so jealous.
I've had the longest weekend, I've had barely any rest the whole week so I really just wanna collapse into my bed [its got that fresh bed sheet feelin` goin on too] & let sleep drown me.
However I can't.
Cause I'm being forced to watch final destination 3.
So I though before I konk out let me drop a blog.
Ahem.
It's been a really long week too...but thankfully this week has all been about personal growth for me. I've been spending a lot of time in the kitchen cooking [ I was surprised to learn that I actually am a good cook] & I baked cookies on friday with Cindy. I made them by 5:00pm & by the time I got back downstairs by 7:00pm my family had demolished them. I was too proud of myself to get irri over it, hell, I thought I'd bun cookies if I ever baked them on my own but I didn't & u knowwwww this maynnnnnnnnnn.

Also, my Piano & music theory is getting a hell of a lot better :o). In terms of my vocals ...erm...confidence & creativity is my biggest problem right now. I can adlib & sing all I want on my own, but once I get up infront of a croud I freeze up [as proved last week thursday...I'd rather not talk about it thanks]. It was some seriously emotional times, I cried after & Cindy and my vocal coach scolded me like never before...it's not like I were seriously singing in a concert, I was ministering in a church & I got waaay more nervous than I should have allowed myself to cause I weren't prepared, plus I'd let a bad comment get to my head & shattered my confidence.
However, I ministered again last night to my own church & it went a hell of a lot better...I was still nervous as hell but I handled it better. I guess this is just another hurdle I have to overcome & I know with time I will. In terms of the song I'm writing I unfortunately haven't been paying as much attention to it as I should have been, so I plan to use the next couple of days to really get some stuff down.

Plus, I move out next sunday. Am I shittin' bricks ? Hell yes. I have NO idea what's in store for me in terms of who I'm living with and the experience life is about to throw at me. I don't know anyone in the uni, I don't have any idea where to even start...& I'm spending so much money this year which is KILLING me...I hope it's all worth it.


xoxo

A lot of love for...

Sara Bareilles <3

A lot of people may not see it, but her lyrics & music are a stroke of pure genius.
The definition of original, n even though this song sounds like somethin` you'd hear on an advert I love the meaning behind it.
Her album = G.O.A.T.



xoxo

Always be.

"I don't wanna hear "I'll be your superman" cause we both know that you can't fly...all the same..I'll accept you takin` the train to come & save me".
- Pookie.

My lil` quote there is me simply expressing the importance of being yourself...so you get the real gist of what you're dealing with.
Why quack like a duck when you're a dog ?
If you know you're ONLY Clark Kent, then tell me, n' take the train/bus to come & find me...I'll still appreciate that you came.
Allow me, I'm having a random moment, blame late night music.

xoxo

Family times = Good times.

Today was a nice day. My 2 fav cousins are down from Nigeria & my nephew, so today was family day.
Full of Nando's, fanta & plentyful jokes.



I don't really get why people say me & this chicken look like twins, it's so blatant that she's my younger sister...







This is Roro [a.k.a Papa], he's such a naughty boy & a troublemaker but I love him to bits...I notice I act really immature around kids...he's passed the age where hes too cute to look for his trouble. I had just given him a bath in that pic & he was so tired, plus I look a hot mess & probably smelled like soap but we still had a lot of fun.

It's all love

xoxo

Tinsel town pt 1

Nice night out ladies, we were rollin'

[ Courtesy of Abby, Lauz, Fatz & Nabz ]

xoxo

Thank you..

Your advice enabled me to school uneducated eggheads like Keppi on how to brush up on their game...

Dunno where I'd be without it

:o)

xoxo

I'm having a nerd moment.

Right.
I want to dedicate this blog to my darlingest Jacob Black *does a love heart sign a million times over*.
Now I read this book ages ago, but I felt the need to express the love for my fav character 'cause people underestimate his greatness.
Jacob Black is everything Edward Cullen should be & everything Bella want's but cause shes so caught up on Edward's looks she fails to realize this. Canyewimagine.
People say it's all about Edward just because he'd protect Bella & look after her & put all her interests first & bla bla bla *rolls eyes* as if Jake wouldn't do that too & more. Jake would do everything Edward can & do it better. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I dislike Edward but ever since he left Bella for a year + in "New moon" he just proved to be not on point.
I loved that the 2nd book was all about Jake...& for once Bella was able to really be her own person. When Edward's around, all Bella is is Edward. All she talks about is Edward. All she thinks about is Edward. The only person she's ever around is Edward [ & maybe Alice but again with Alice comes EDWARD], Edward this, Edward that, for goodness sake man she has NO mind when Edward is around. Her stupid infatuation that she calls "love" for Edward which is solely based on his looks is what's made me put down the last book & read another book instead, shes so ghey & :| ... Someone isn't supposed to come & take away your sense of self so you get so lost in them. No. You're supposed to both add to each other lives, not they come along & become your whole damn life I mean wdf ? So when they for one reason or another have to leave what are you gonna do then ? You're gonna be left with nothing that's what which is clearly what happened in book 2 & then you were depressed out of your mind, damn near suicidal until Jacob came. This girl shes such an idiot. Never have I read about such foolishness.
But when it's all about JAKE. Bella's free to do whatever she wants, be around whoever she wants to be around, live her life & have her dreams the way SHE wants to. Plus he's her best friend, her partner in crime & her rock, Jake is the WHOLE package & a bag of chips, I don't understand why she can't see this. Sure Jacob is slightly immature, a bit wreckless & has temper problems but isn't that what it's all about ? growing together ? being with someone who makes you whole & loves you the way you are ? she was damaged goods & still in love with some bloodsucker who left her cause he's chupid & Jacob came along and stitched her back up...in my opinion how she repaid him was not on par at all.

All I can say is this. If Jacob Black was real you'd have to pry me off him with a crowbar.
I'd be a wolf girl anyday.

xoxo

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Dear anonymous,

Whoever's out there & is coming into my life next, there are a few things about me that you need to know before you decide to ride this progressing train.
I mean c'mon, if you're gonna be my partner in crime there needs to be some ground rules first.
First of all, in the words of Kelly Clarkson, "I do not hook up, I fall deep" meaning we take it slow...& I'm not talkin "linkin" for a few months & then decide to be together. No. I'm talking "Musiq soulchild - Buddy" or "Musiq Soulchild - Just friends" style...hell....Musiq had the whole idea. We either do it that way to begin with or no way at all & you will just remain my associate forever. I take things slow for a reason, if you rush me it won't be nice for either of us.
Secondly, I will not believe you if you tell me you like me just after a couple of weeks/one month...that's rubbish. I will not believe you if you tell me you want to spend ridiculous amounts of money on me when you barely know me, that's how you know crap is just sitting heavy behind your words. I won't listen to you if you repeat lines to me I heard on the movie I watched the previous day, or you tell me what you think you know about me, because I'll just look at you, and then I'll laugh.
Thirdly, don't play games. I'm not into that. I'll walk out upon any signs of that. I'm not in for any type of emotional stress or excess hassle from someone who's just as human as I am. If you keep it 100% real with me I'll keep it real with you...I'll prob like you even more for being so upfront with me anyway.
Also.
Laugh with me when I eat messy, tolerate the fact that I go crazy when I see sweeties or a pix & mix stand. Know that when I tell you to read a book because you'll like it...I know for a damn fact you really would like it. Get used to the fact that I'm talkative...& most of it is rubbish...you have to listen to the rubbish too. I'm aff...know that eventually you'll have to understand whats comin out of my mouth...I'm not saying you have to speak it, but make attempts to understand & accept it the way I will do for whatever culture you're coming from. Know that sometimes I like to cuddle just because. Watch cartoons with me in the morning & jam with me to in video gospel. Let me know when I'm being an idiot, it may sting but I'll appreciate it later. We're not having sex so dont ask. I can go from snap music to adlibbing to alicia keys to air guitaring to Evanescansce to jumping around to Smokie Norful to chillaxin & writing along to some Maxwell...my taste in music runs wide & deep...I'm not saying you have to like it but be accepting. Have deep conversations with me. Don't underestimate me or insult my growing intelligence...you'll regret it later. Respect my beliefs & when I ask you to pass me the remote...give it.
My list runs a mile long, but you have to learn the rest along the way. I can't reveal all the secrets can I ?

Love Uwie


P.s...just for the record...it's not like I won't give back 110%. Trust me when I say I will.

Why did I write this ?
I was reading a book earlier about how demanding we as people are with what we want from others. This made me wonder about just how much I'd be asking for from the next person...so I was thinkin about it n I decided to put it down in the best form I know, writing.
To be honest before I wrote this I didn't think I was demanding at all, but I realise I'm asking for an awful lot of someone who's just as human as I am and struggling to get through life the same way that I am. I guess it's a lot when I lay it out like that...but I do know my worth & I do know what I will & won't stand for. That being said doesn't mean that I don't have a lot of work to do on myself before I start telling someone else what to expect and take from me.
For the past few days I've been on this "why should I give my heart out to someone when they're just gonna trample on it ? bun dat" flex...& my friend pointed out to me the other day that I may well just be the one trampling next...because I am a human & it's what we humans do best.

This all makes me think about just how much acceptance & patience you need to have to be able to be with someone else, how much of their baggage you need to take on without a hint of complaint...& you'd do it because you love them. Babysitting.
...
Yeah that patience & acceptance part...I'm working on that.

xoxo

My dahlink.

So I walked into "Herga Music" the other day & saw one of the most beautiful things I've ever encountered in my life.

There he stood.

Skin a light olive oil colour.
Strong looking & well built.
Made especially for women.
Fit perfectly into my arms.
I couldn't resist & I had to have him.




Isn't he beautiful ? & mines. For all knowing purposes his name is Jubba so if you see his name in future blogs know who I'm talking about.

All his brothers had been sold & he was the only one left, so I took him there & then. Finders keepers, losers weepers.

He sounds beautiful too.



Lol. We're gonna have a lot of fun together.

xoxo

Pookie got a haircut.

Sorry about my recent absence...I've been overly busy hence my disappearance on my blog.

However.

One thing I reckon I should let you know isss....I cut my hair :o)



Did I die when they took the first few snips of my hair ? Hell yez. But I got over it as the style progressed...it's gonna take some getting used to but I do quite like it :o) It's a big change from the past year of braids, weave on's & afro's...so I'm just gonna be natural for a lil while.

I move out in 3 weeks.
I start uni in 4 weeks.
I'm job hunting.
I'm involved in a lot of activities at my church.
I'm still sailing through the mabel project and my vocal lessons.
Found a guitar teacher, gonna properly start learning once I get myself a job.
I'm on a quest for self sufficiency.

Do I have time for this ? No. Do I have time for anything nowadays ? No.

xoxo

TGI fridays

These bobblehead boys we went with are idiots lol, I went to college with them, they're like our nonsicle little brothers [even though they're older than us...but they don't act it].
It was an interesting night, we were all relavitvely real...I think...I admitted some things I swore I'd never ever repeat when they happened in the 1st year in fear of inflating their egos but I figured since I prob aint gonna see them for a while I should come clean about it.
The food...of course, was on par.
Nice atmosphere.
Peng drinks.
Overly expensive though.

Anyhoo, this was my night :o)



Cindy & Carl on the way there, Cindy lookin @ me like "Uwa what you doin bravz" lool.



Walkin back from the gas station to TGI.



Bathroom break.



Waitin for our table :o)



Cindy posinggg.



The twins [ CJ & Mike a.k.a the rats a.k.a trollop number 1 & 2 ] they LOOK like they were havin an intellectual convo...but c'mon now...this is the twins we're talkin about.



Khepri [ Trollop number 3 ]



Me & Mikeeee.



Mike & Kheppie ! Lol they aint serious.



Bus journey back.



Lool they're like cat & mouse sometimes, but they lav each other anyway.



Me & Mike [ lookin drunkkkk ]



Cindy & CJ



Me & CJ



:o)

Like I said, nice night.

xoxo